“I know I’m lazy with the little things”

December 25, 2006


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There’s a lot to be said when you go back to a place you haven’t been in after seven years. Me and my family (minus my older brother, plus our housekeeper) finally went back to Baguio after said number of years. While our car was going up the winding road (we call it “zigzag”), I found myself sniffing the air every five seconds. And when we finally neared the city proper, I couldn’t help it. I had to let out a whoop. I just had to or… or… Let’s just say I had to and leave it at that.

The hotel rooms we got are all right. There was that imagined fright while I was taking a shower. Every time I take a shower or sleep in a place that’s not my own, scary thoughts cram inside my head. For instance, while shampooing earlier I imagined that someone was just outside the shower door. That when I open it, I’ll be seeing a white lady. Or worse, a black lady. Then while I was trying to get some nap, I imagined some silhouette was there by the doorway. [I ended up leaving the light there turned on, even though my mother was, say, about two or three feet away from me.] I’m mad. I scare myself and that’s the only time I get scared. I got glimpses of those beings before but I get more scared when I scare myself. What a lunatic I am. How gorgeous is that?

I remember Stephen King saying something about hotels. How you never know what went on in the room you’re occupying. Once before, in that same room, a man could have been holding the Bible while contemplating hanging himself in the closet. Something like that.


December 20, 2006

Quarter Life Crisis?

Filed under: Uncategorized — stuckinreverse @ 10:17 am

Twenty-four years of existence. Three relationships which lasted no more than three months. Yes, all three of them. It doesn’t matter that I started out with good intent and wanted to make things work and last. They always seem to drop me faster than I could blink an eye. It makes me think: Is it my fault? I mean, one failed relationship is bad enough. But two? A consecutive two? That’s kind of a pity, isn’t it?

This makes me wonder if I’m going to grow old alone. Not that I don’t mind. Truth is, I’ve profusely enjoyed being single. Not that I work hard and party harder when I am. It just means I’ve so much breathing room for myself. But society dictates that I marry. Hell, family dictates I marry. That’s ironic, since there are a number of my relatives who are past their thirties and still haven’t made that trip down the aisle. Then being a girl makes the pressure more intense, because a girl is expected to marry before they hit their thirties. My family is worried I’m going to turn into a spinster. And it is times like tonight that I worry I might turn into a spinster.

Maybe I should just secretly connive with a guy to get married, for the sake of putting the old “When will you get married?” conversation. Said guy would be needing me, too, of course because he has to put a front to his family as well. Ahh… A story is brewing inside my head. Nice =) Maybe I should get started on that. Forget this issue, this concern (whatever you prefer to call it) at least for a moment.

December 13, 2006

test broadcast

Filed under: Uncategorized — stuckinreverse @ 9:02 am

I… I suddenly have nothing to say. Hmm. That’s funny, because thoughts are running loose in my head. Somehow, they prefer to be caged. For now.

I signed up for Deviant Art. I was thinking I need a place to put all my Photoshop works, as well as the ones I’ve written. Mostly crap, really. And I still have to fix the credits section. To all those I’ve gotten brushes and patterns and textures, tutorials and actions sets, I tell you: Do not worry. I really will credit you. I promise. I just need the time to compile you guys and then type it all up. Thank you for your wonderful works. If you wish to see them, go here. I’d appreciate it if you drop by.

Then I signed up for e-snips because it’s just so wonderful. *lol* Really, it amazes me. That site’s a keeper. Go visit it here.

So my brother said a month ago he’ll be buying me a website as a Christmas present. Whoop-de-doo! I then started to make layouts using my aunt’s computer (because our was broken. It’s always broken, dammit! Anyway, now he says he won’t be able to buy me. That’s all right. I could always buy one with my Christmas money (Aren’t parents wonderful?). I just wish he didn’t tell me that. I’d rather he just do it. Never mind the words. Actions, actions, actions speak louder than words. Always. Oh well. His intentions were good, though. That much, I see and appreciate.

December 12, 2006

Hello world!

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